Change

I hate it! Really I do. I almost had a nervous breakdown when I moved from one apartment to another in Ridgeland. Yes I wasn't even changing parts of town and it really made me crazy! All this to say there is a lot of change going on in the O'Donnell house. We have been praying and seeking and searching out why God seemed to have us at a stand still for a while. Eugene continued to go down several different roads and it appeared that God was closing every door he was trying. While God opened a HUGE door here for me with my job, part of loving someone the way I love my husband is that just because I was happy and content doing what I wanted didn't mean that WE were happy. Seeing him go through this trying time has been difficult. Ok all that to say that it seems God has brought us to our next place and this comes with much change! I have told several of you but wanted all my happy blog readers to know :) that Eugene took a job with Kaplan/PMBR. It's a bar review company that we both worked through during law school and was recently purchased by Kaplan. He applied for a position that he thought would be here in Jackson well it turns out it's in Denver. Yes kids that's not here! He is thrilled! First of all it seems to be a job that he will love and be soooooo good at and has a tremendous amount of flexibility which with his personality is a perfect fit. It's a position that will use his competitiveness and his passion and if you know Eugene you know that he will thrive as a salesman. He is required to a have a law degree as well so that helps that he is using it in some capacity. He also would love love love to live in Colorado...well...perfect fit. I am committed to the court until May and then we will be moving. This is all if we go and think it is somewhere we can live. Now back to the change part...YIKES! I'm scared to death! My parents have just recently left Memphis and I may be moving across the country...this thought makes me feel homeless! There is a huge lesson I learned while at MC and my semester that I took off...I must be content regardless of my circumstances. Meaning my contentment (contentment never seemed like a good enough word for me...joy, rest, etc. always seemed more appropriate...anyway) must be from the Lord. It seems that I have gotten very comfortable in my surroundings. Although Eugene and I have been struggling lately with why the Lord hadn't allowed him to pass the bar and/or find the career path that he would stay on for quite some time...I was comfortable. I know everything here and feel very safe. God, it seems, is forcing us out of this comfort zone. My adventuresome husband is taking this on full force (he doesn't do anything any other way) and is so excited. Some of his excitement however is dampered by the fact that his wife is freaking out! Eugene has pretty much left the decision in my court. I of course want to follow where the Lord is leading us and also follow my husband. Sorry this has gotten long but I could go on forever about how I am terrified and this is pushing me out of my comfort zone but I am almost 100% positive this is what we will end up doing and have a strange peace that God will make it okay in the end. I'm just scared about the meantime. God grant us the grace to do this and honor you in the process. We'll keep you all posted!